too late for regrets, too late to cry

I had a nightmare last night, i was standing in huge room to prepare my things in talent-show night. I was standing there with lot of beautiful girl which i think they are participant of Puteri Indonesia 2012 too. I knew i must started to prepare myself for talent-show night but i can't do anything. I just stand and crying because i don't know how to use that traditional hat, the costume and how to make over my face. That's make me stress, i cry and cry... I am not ready for that stupid night.

Well, the next story is i woke up with a fast heart beat like i already surround a field. This is scary, i'm not well prepared for that competition.

Lately this competition makes me stress, i trapped.
I just applying for leisure..
I just attending the audition just to feel no loss for having spent a lot of money to register..
I just wanna make some fun because i'm sure i will not continue to the next step..

But after being one of the finalist i realize.. What am i suppose to do. What kind of think that i must prepare for the next. Can i learn all that things?? make some make up in my face?? dance like that, walking like a super model, behave like a princess etc etc .. can i do that???!!?

Damn, i'm so trapped. Can't run, can't hide...
Gosh, this is very stressful! DAMN YOU COMPETITION!!!!!

p.s : too late for regrets, too late to cry.. Damn!